Happy Friday, everyone!!
I went outside my comfort zone this morning and tried something new at CrossFit: a hand stand push up (HSPU) against the wall.
(p.s. It’s always so humbling to see a photo of what you actually look like executing a move. In my head my body is straight, I’m not sweaty, and I don’t look like I’m about to collapse. Eh. What can you do. )
This was something I assumed I wouldn’t be attempting for a while, mainly out of fear of failing than anything else. There are different variations of a HSPU that allow you to work up to the ones against the wall, such as doing a push up at an angle on all fours, with your feet up on the box, with a band, etc. Those are where I felt safe and confident. The “real” HSPUs were for the “real” CrossFitters, surely I couldn’t handle that.
Then, this morning, I was in a class of all men and our skill focus for the day was the HSPU and dead lift. When the instructor suggested just practicing getting up into a handstand to get the feel of it, I decided why not. I used to love doing handstands back in the day and figured going upside down would be more fun than work.
I went up the first time and was promptly teased for how graceful I was getting into a hand stand – my old gymnastic and dance roots were definitely showing through! I felt strong up there and confident – why had I been so afraid? I moved my arms down just to see if I could possibly move up and down and shocked everyone in the room when I was able to move. Holy crap. I could do this.
The next time I went up, the instructor placed three ab mats under my head as a guide for where I should go. I wasn’t strong enough to get to the floor yet, but I could hit the ab mats. I did three or four and still couldn’t believe I was doing it. Again, why had I been so afraid? Why are any of us afraid to attempt things we think look so hard – if we don’t try those things, we’ll never know what’s possible.
Once I was finished the instructor asked who else was doing HSPU against the wall for today’s WOD… besides Meghann. Gulp. What? Besides Meghann? Today’s WOD was “Diane” which consisted of three rounds of 21, 15, and 9 reps of HSPU. I just did a few against the wall – could I really do 21 in a row? That’s when he gave me a pep talk. He reminded me I COULD do this and that if I didn’t it would only be because I was afraid, not because I couldn’t do this.
I decided I would try the WOD with the HSPU against the wall, if I felt I couldn’t do it, then I would drop down to another variation.
“Diane” consisted of three rounds of dead lifts and HSPUs with descending reps of 21, 15, and 9. I’m slowly building my strength with dead lifts and worked up to 95 lbs for the WOD. After the first 21 reps of dead lifts, I was in no mood for HSPU, but I pushed myself and – you know what? – I did it. All against the wall with my three ab mats under my head. The first round gave me the confidence I needed for the second and third rounds and “Diane” was over in new time. VICTORY!
We rested for 5 minutes, then started “Paula” which was a 10 minute AMRAP of 5 box jumps and 200 meter sprints. I knocked out a little more than 7 complete rounds of Paula.
Today’s CrossFit lesson – don’t be afraid to try new things just because you think you’ll fail, the truth is you’ll probably succeed. Sure, my HSPUs weren’t pretty and I have a LOT of work ahead of me with them, but I was up against the wall with the big boys and I’m proud of that. If there weren’t other guys there pushing me, I probably wouldn’t have tried. Don’t give up!
When’s the last time you pushed yourself to try something new? Were you afraid?
After a very uplifting CrossFit session, breakfast was a treat.
I heated up the last bit of pumpkin french toast leftover from my bridal shower and topped it with almond butter, plain chobani, fig preserves, and pecans.
Man this was delicious. It was more like dessert than breakfast and so, so tasty. 🙂
Have a great Friday everyone!